I've been having stomach pain lately, makes me wonder if it's possible that I have stomach ulcer. Other than that, I've sort of decided to quite iScribble, but maybe not yet. Anyhow, I'm taking the drug off. I should be able to draw more now, since iScribble is out of the way. Isolation actually helped, I got to say, ever since I tried to talk less with people, I feel as if a part of my motivation came back. Hopefully I'll be able to produce more work.

What has happened lately, & I'm not planing to explain it (so be ready to get lost in a sea of words), but, it made me sort of regretted meeting a few people that I've ever met. But just the few individual people I see around and not talk to (anymore)(in real life and on internet). Only if there is a way for me to erase their memories about me or let me apologize, I'd really like to start over our friendship/start a friendship. But like the way life is, there is no second chance in life, so I guess at this point, I should just give up, there's no point of fixing this because I don't feel a single bit of the other person caring about anything. I know that I fail to be a friend and to have this personality, but either way, I'd like it more if people can be blunt about my actions, I really wish those people can just do this, so at least I can end my doubts about, and or to even improve myself. I'm starting to hate the things I do, and I feel so tired about it. I realise how annoying I can be to people, and I want that to stop.